Tuesday, 03 November 2009
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What I Would've Said
I was born three months early. Well, actually, it was a little bit more than that, but you know that already. There are a million reasons why I shouldn’t be alive—and even more why I should have about a thousand problems. I don’t. I was lucky. I’m a fighter. Not an unnecessary one, mind you—not a person who picks fights on a whim. I don’t believe in needless, senseless arguments. I’m discerning. I fight for the things I believe in. And, well, I’ve always believed in you.
And you know, I can’t really tell how long it’s been since you really trusted someone. I know that you trust me to a certain extent. Probably more than most people in your life. But I want you to know one thing: there’s not a damn thing about your past that’d scare me away. There’s not one single thing you could tell me that would make me care about you any less.
I've always defended you. To anyone and everyone. I'm not telling you that to make you feel bad. I'm not telling you that for kicks. There's no ulterior motive. I don't mind taking the risk for you. I don't have a problem throwing myself into the fray. Because I believe--underneath everything, past that water under the bridge--you're worth it.
Now, the rest--where this goes--that's entirely up to you.
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Comments (21)
this is really very courageous of you. go on live that life.
That takes guts to say.
Hell, I know I'd never say it.
Vulnerability is not a feeling I would like to become accustomed to.
I was born 3 months pre-mature too. And almost died because of a problem with my intestines! I have a scar across my stomach from surgery. Weird.
Anyway, I love this post. Very strong. Kudos to you!
Well said.
I love when your name pops up in my feed...I always know I'll read something worth reading. And this didn't disappoint.
I feel like I could have written that a few months ago. You, of course, said it a million times better then I ever could have.
I believe that you could have written this to any number of people in your life,you ar just like that,I believe in you Ali,I think you are incredible.
Ahhh...and posts like this are the reason I keep coming back to your page : )
Maybe you should turn this "would've said" into a "What I Said" type scenario. ???
This is the reason i get up in the middle of the nite to check my post!
Always love when there's a new post from you. And this one was brilliant, as always.
you need to write a novel !! i like your style. i was born with many problems and somehow have only a few minor ones today. in my country, russia, your parents toss you out if you have problems at birth - it is bad luck and not worth money. fortunately i had new parents who adopted me and took me to the hot state of florida.
Lucky person to win such a love. ♥
I think that's a note that anyone would like to get.
@LultimaNotte - i was about to say the same thing.
@TheBigShowAtUD - They do say that great minds think alike...
a fighter, you are. cheers.
Yes!
I agree with -@LultimaNotte - & @TheBigShowAtUD
At every turn, your emotion punctuates something very special about you, Ali. If you were writing something that you would have said to a man, he should only be so lucky to have you fight for him--with him.
~Em.
Thank you for sharing this... I absolutely loved reading it. May I ask what you did actually say?